No more diets

Dear friends,

I’m struggling with how I think about life and how food fits into it.

In the past, I’ve tried to educate myself and apply psychological concepts of what the food means and represents. 

I’ve come to a realization that it has to stop. I must stop all plans and schemes and tracking and macros and on and on.

I’m so very tired of it all. 

I must stop dieting.

Long ago I read Geneen Roth (Women, Food, and God) I ordered her online course. 

I stopped doing it because I couldn’t cry any more. 

I’ve meditated with Jon Gabriel. 

I tried to read Julia Ross (The Diet Cure).

I’ve been told by therapists I’ll never make it halfway to my goals.

It feels as though the need to feed is emotional, chemical, and habitual. 

Such a complicated challenge.

I’m finding my password to that course. 

I’m listening to a new podcast—The Dr. Nina Show. 

I dug out my old, yellowed copy of The Diet Cure and I’m taking my amino acids. 

I’ve tried and failed because I gained and bailed.

I’ll let you know how it goes...wish me well. 

I’m scared.